Tuesday, December 18, 2007

"Speak your mind, Even if your voice shakes."

This quote, is one that I have repeated in my head over and over today. And then the moment finally came where I had to speak. And my voice shook, and trembled, and I almost started to cry.

But, I held it together, and I said what I had to say. And now, it is more evident than ever that it is time for me to start looking for a new job.

I have said for a long time, that I don't feel respected, or worth it here. That my views and viewpoints go unrecognized. In one ear, and out the other. Why am I here? Why would you want me here, if only to ignore me? It has now turned to borderline harassment and I need to do something about it. The constant stress, the feelings of never doing anything right (even though I am the one with the accounting degree!); the notion that there is "no way that she could be right." Being unappreciated is no fun. In my world, things are cut and dry. And it's time to take my integrity back.

Speaking my mind just isn't cutting it anymore.


Christina said...

I'm sorry you're going through this. I have been there too and know how it feels and it is incredibly frustrating. I'm glad you at least tried but my situation was so similar to yours that I definitely agree that it is time for a new direction..

Amanda said...

Oh Emily!!! I hope you are able to find a better job! Maybe this stress has to do with the other problems you are dealing with... stress can cause so many problems!!! Good luck to you!

Also, I have never heard that quote, I really like it.

Amy Carroll said...

I know you've struggled with feelings that you're never viewed with the respect you deserve at your current employer, Emily. This may be just the start to finding a job that better suits your strengths and talents. And one where you are valued!

apt said...

This is a post and situation that deserves celebration, I think. It's time, and now you know it! So, can your gentle readers keep you accountable to the goal of moving on?