Friday, September 5, 2008

Enough is Enough

Do you ever have those weeks where you just don't think you can handle anymore pain, agony or grief?? That has been my week.

My sister is going through a crisis right now. A big one. One of huge proportions and it's tearing me up inside. It's hard to see a loved one in such great pain, and I have been praying that she will make it through this difficult time in her life. I know that we are all here to support her. Right now, I just want to give her a big hug.

My co-workers mom passed away last night after complications from surgery. There is always that expected chance that something terrible might happen, but it's rare that we think it will actually happen. I cried hard for her this morning.

An acquaintance from a local baby chat board that I am on, lost her little boy this week to an unknown virus. My heart aches and breaks for her.

I got a call from a local salon owner last night, and she told me that she was suing my very close friend for slander (a former employee of the salon). She went on and on about how terrible my friend is, about how she is spreading lies about me etc etc. Her husband is friend's with Curtis, and he called Curtis too. Why were we roped into this mess?? This is none of my business, and frankly it's pretty uncool to lay that on an 8 month pregnant woman WHILE SHE IS AT WORK.

My cat has been giving us problems for about the last year. She doesn't use her litter box to go #2. On Wednesday morning, I woke up to a mess UPSTAIRS. Previously, she had been doing this on the basement floor. But, now this behavior has made it's way into the living space in our house. We made an appointment to put her down. And then we cancelled that appointment after all that has happened this week. I just can't take it. Instead, we are going to try one more time to see if the vet has a solution for us. Otherwise, I hate to think of the other consequence. We cannot rehome her, and that breaks my heart. And with a new baby on the way, I hate to say it, but we can't have a cat that poops in our house. It's just not safe for a baby.

Last night I cried myself to sleep. I can't take anymore. I really can't. Tomorrow is my baby shower, and I have to try and put on a happy face. My sister can't make it, and I want her there. I am just so heartbroken this week. I feel like enough is enough already. Please God, give me a break. Often times, we ask "WHY GOD?, WHY??" But in the end, I know this is not his will. He is throwing things at me to make me a stronger and better woman. But, He does not want to see me in pain. I know this. I am His chid, and I find my comfort in Him during these very tough moments. But, even still, it's hard to see that light at the end of the tunnel.

Pray for my strength. I feel like I am holding on by a teeny tiny thread.

10 comments:

Austin & Melissa said...

Thinking of you Emily! You are one tough chick! God will give you strength.

Amanda said...

I have been trying to comment all day and my computer keep freezing!!!

Anyways:
"The Will of God will not take you, where the Grace of God cannot keep you"

Em said...

Thanks for that reminder, Amanda. And you are so right. :o)

Julie said...

Sorry to hear it's been a rough week. Hope things start looking up from so many angles for you, Emily!

Karrie said...

Thinging of you Emily. Hopefully things will start turning for the positive quickly. Enjoy your baby shower, celebrating the new life you are about to bring into the world.

Beth said...

We're here for you.

Christina said...

I'm sorry about all of this em. Erin told me the story already. Very un professional of that salon. Try to get some rest!

~marie~ said...

Em, you are one of the toughest women I know...just keep your chin up and know that you have a strong network of people praying for you and those around you...

K. Holly Photography said...

I'm so sorry to hear about all the stuff you're dealing with - no wonder you're feeling overwhelmed!

You'll be in my prayers - hang in there <3

tiffany_k said...

Thinking of you Em. Keep the faith.