Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Toodles to the 20's

I turned 30 today. It's a weird sensation, leaving behind your "best years" as some would say. I don't know if my 20's were my best years, but I know that a lot of awesome things happened in the last decade. I graduated from college, I got my first job, I bought my first home. I got married, sold the one house, bought another, had a baby, moved jobs two times, and most importantly, I learned A LOT along the way.

I have long felt that our 20's are there to teach us. We learn right from wrong, how to live on our own in the real world, how to manage our money and so many other things. Some of us learn how to live in the same house with a man who doesn't change the TP roll, and some of us start the path to learning how to be parents. We come into our own in our 20's. We learn what it really means to be alive, and I will look back and forever thank my 20's for teaching me, and teaching me well.

Now, I am 30. I feel a little older. I won't lie. It's harder to lose weight, and there is skin damage, and wrinkles, and even some gray hair. I look older, my soul is wiser and my brain forgets more often. In reality though, and this is my 90 year old grandmothers talking, "I am a spring chicken. I am still young." I know this. I know that 30 is nowhere near being old. But, for the 3 decades I have been here, well, today is the oldest I have ever been. And it feels OLD.

I took the day off today, and I reflected on my many birthdays over the years. There were birthdays with surprises, and birthdays with a lot of drinks involved, and birthdays with quiet dinners at home, and birthdays in other states, and birthdays that meant more than others, and birthdays that I don't miss at all. I didn't do much of anything today. I delivered a meal to a friend that lost her mom, I spoke with my big sister for awhile, I spent the day with Charlie, and I was surprised by a husband that came home at 1pm to greet me with flowers. We ordered takeout and put the baby to bed. Of all of my birthdays, this one has been the most peaceful. I feel like it can only get better from here. I might not be able to drink like a sailor anymore, and I might have a (gasp!) age spot or two on my face, but with age, comes knowledge.

I feel good about today. And I look forward to the next decade. I figure the 30's are when you get to enjoy yourself a bit more, instead of waking up with a hangover on a Saturday morning. It's all about family, friends, my career and so much more. I really feel like I know what life has in store for me now. There is still uncertainty, but it feels good to know what to expect a bit more from here on out.

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A man's age is something impressive, it sums up his life: maturity reached slowly and against many obstacles, illnesses cured, griefs and despairs overcome, and unconscious risks taken; maturity formed through so many desires, hopes, regrets, forgotten things, loves. A man's age represents a fine cargo of experiences and memories. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Wartime Writings 1939-1944, translated from French by Norah Purcell

Everything slows down with age, except the time it takes cake and ice cream to reach your hips. ~Attributed to John Wagner

We turn not older with years, but newer every day. ~Emily Dickinson

7 comments:

Trinity said...

Happy Birthday! I'm glad you had such a good day. You deserve it. :)

Amanda said...

Happy Birthday (yesterday) Good post :)

Heather said...

Happy Belated Birthday!!!

Elizabeth said...

Ohh...you old bag. Just kidding, sissy! Thirty is still so YOUNG! I remember when I turned I felt like it was just the beginning of a great phase in my life. Well, I wasn't totally right...just kidding again.:) You have so much ahead of you and I love you very much!

Kristen said...

Happy Birthday Em! :)

Christina said...

Happy Birthday!!!

Kerri said...

Happy Birthday!