Tuesday, May 26, 2009

The Anal Retent Has Left the Building....For Now.

I was a born perfectionist. Some things just have to be a certain way, or I get dizzy and feel like I am going to faint. I am anal about being on time, and about how my house looks and about things on counter tops. I need things in piles or in some sort of organized fashion. You won't ever come over to my house and find a pile of papers strewn about on the dining room table. I just can't stand it. I am a true believer in the old saying "A place for everything and everything in it's place."

When I was in college, I had serious issues with how dirty the house would get. My roommates would find me at 8am on a Saturday morning, cleaning the house after a party, because the thought of all the beer stuck on the floor made me want to vomit. (The beer I drank also was a contributing factor) I had serious anxiety about that, and it's so funny to laugh about it now. (Seriously? Who does that??!!)

As I got older, and moved through my 20's, I learned to chill out. (I know some people are snickering, going "yeah right!") Even more so lately, I have become even more lackadaisical about my old compulsions. Being a Mom has majorly changed me in a whole lot of ways, and this is one of them.

Case in point:

My friend Sarah, one of my old college roommates commented on the video I posted below. She said her favorite part of the video was how immaculately clean my floors were considering that Charlie kissed them. I laughed so hard, because the floors hadn't been cleaned in 2 weeks!

Charlie shares his toys with other babies. GASP! His buddy Sydney will suck on a toy, hand it to Charlie, he will suck on it, and the only one gasping is Sydney's mom. (Love ya' Jules!!)

Right now, at 8:00pm, there are toys in every corner of our house. I have no desire to pick them all up right now. And it's totally cooolllll.

I am never on time anymore. I can't make it somewhere on time to save my life. I try with everything in me but it just doesn't happen. I justify this with the fact that I was on time for 29 years, so I should be cut some slack in this department :o)

This is just a sampling of some of the things that I have relaxed about. Don't worry, I won't go all laid-back on you, but I seriously feel like becoming a Mom has chilled me out like no other. I just can't worry about it all anymore. Even the serious worrywart in me has left this building. I think I have learned to enjoy life a lot more, and to not let it pass me by so quickly. Sometimes I wish I had more of the laid back attitude that Nancy has, or that Lindsay has. The go-with-the-flow, live-and-let-live thing is kind of fun. And for now, I am enjoying this new found freedom from my inner self :o)


Christina said...

Awww. I'm glad you can relax even if it is just a little. That really helps in the long run!

Mia said...

I am right there with ya! The real important thing right now is how much time I spend with Aydin.

tiffany_k said...

I'm right there with you. Amazing how such a little person can change you so much, huh?