Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Leaving on a jet plane...

We are headed out of town for the next 5 days. You would think I would be really excited to go. But, really? I go in and out of feeling ready to get out of here. There is just so much going on right now at home, that it seems odd to just jump on a plane and head out. We are leaving Charlie too, and I am really starting to get upset about it. I never in a million years, would have thought I would be feeling this way. I knew I would miss him, but I didn't think I would feel so anxious about actually doing so. I didn't sleep a wink last night. And while putting him to be tonight, I cried like I was leaving him forever. :( If anyone has advice on that front, I would surely appreciate it.

I know we need this time away. We need time to work on us. We need time away from our jobs. We need time away from home. We need time away. I know this. Before Charlie, I looked forward to our vacations so much. When we were getting ready to go to Europe, I spent 2 weeks packing my lousy bag. I was so fired up for that day to get here. With this trip, I just feel blah. Almost as if I don't even want to go. (shhh, don't tell my husband.) It's such irrational thinking, isn't it??

I am hoping that leaving on that jet plane, will magically snap me out of this funk I am in. We have planned and planned and planned for this. Just a few weeks ago, I was SO excited. Where did that excitement go?? I know that it's lost in recent events, and the fact that I am leaving my baby. I know we will have a great time, but tonight, I am having one of those moments. I am sure that once I am sitting in the airport, having a pre-board cocktail, that all of my feelings will diminish.

Maybe I just need to cry it out. Or maybe it's the jet plane that will be the fix I am looking for :)

5 comments:

Mia said...

I don't have any advice for you Em but I can only imagine how you are feeling about leaving Charlie. Know that he is in good hands and in the end it's very good for you and Curtis to get away.

Amanda said...

Have fun... I love that song!

Kerri said...

Safe travels!

hulalula said...

I know it's really, really hard to leave him, but you're going to have a great time! Have a safe and awesome trip!

Heather said...

Hope you have a great time!!!