Tuesday, March 27, 2012

More Than The Gym Or The Kitchen

I was reading through some of my old posts last night.  It's so fun to re-read this journal and to see how far I've come.  One post in particular hit me hard.  I wrote it 2 years ago in January 2010.  I had finished out a 90 day fitness challenge, I was down 20 lbs and feeling limitless.  The scale and food had a power over me back then and deep down, I knew I had to shift my thinking.  I still had 30 more pounds to lose to get to that beautiful 180 pound goal weight I had at the time.

In the March challenge group I'm leading right now, one of the girls had a bad scale day.  She was so upset that the scale moved UP at her weigh in yesterday.  Yet, she had received compliments over the weekend on how great she is looking.  Her clothes are fitting better and best of all she spoke of how good she is feeling. She was defeated, frustrated, discouraged. Sound familiar??  So often, it's easy to base ALL of our success or failure around the scale We use it as a way to define how we are doing, but it's certainly not the only thing.  Back in 2010 this was something I still needed to learn.  It takes patience to get there and I still have bad scale days but I don't get down on myself like that girl back in January of 2010.

I referenced a Phit-N-Phat post that Corinne wrote back then.  She said this and it rang true back then, and it still rings true today. 

"HARD WORK isn't always in the gym or in the kitchen. Often it's in the mind. It's ignoring the scale and looking at what you do to find results. That's not nearly as satisfying but it's more important."

Ignoring the scale.  What?? Well, she's right on.  When you shift your mind and know that you are doing all the right things to lose, the scale shouldn't matter.  It was a hard concept for me to digest. I used to be a serial weigh-er. I'd weigh myself in the morning, after lunch, before bed.  Why?? I have no idea because I remember feeling tortured by that behavior.  

Corinne goes on to say this:

"It's also HARD WORK to realize looking good is not as important as feeling good and living a long life. Do you REALLY believe in this?"

I can officially say that I DO.  I get it now.  Getting fit and healthy is not a destination anymore.  It's a way of life.  I will never go back to that girl who yo-yo'd her way through the last 15 years.  I'm refusing to.  Why? Because I want to live a long and healthy life. I want to see my children have children. Life is beautiful and I deserve to live it and live it well.

It's been 2 years of HARD WORK to realize this.  I got pregnant again and knew I would gain most of the weight I lost to have a healthy 2nd pregnancy. I'm back here again, with a new fresh perspective.  Hard work, patience and never giving up all pay off.  Not just in the kitchen or in the gym, but up in that noggin', too.

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