Monday, January 7, 2013

Comfort Zone

I was watching Biggest Loser last night, and if you haven't heard already Jillian Michaels is back on the show. When I say she's back, I mean it! She was in full "Jillian" force last night! Yelling, cussing, and kicking (for real!) the contestants butts.  A lot of people think she's too mean. I agree to an extent that she can come off as demeaning when she's in the gym.  BUT, as they moved into the heavy stuff outside of the gym, my love of her became very evident. Many of the people on The Biggest Loser have never had anyone talk to them like that in regards to their weight.  You don't go on the show because you want to be coddled. You go because you know you need a total transformation and for some people to really make a change, you have to be able to get into your own head and get REAL with yourself. You have to push yourself outside of your comfort zone!

This past weekend I went to the mall with my best friend, Meg.  Meg and I have known each other for over two decades. She's the one friend that has seen me at my best and seen me at my worst.  She's also the one that can get into my head and make me THINK.  While at the mall, we went into Forever 21.  I'm sure you've heard of this store, but if not, it's a store full of all things trendy.  We have a new Forever 21 at our mall and it's HUGE. Forever 21 was always more like FOREVER-Nothing-Fit.  I could never squeeze into even their largest "large" tops.  And good luck with anything that was supposed to fit my bottom half. HA! No way.  I walked into the store and didn't know where to start. I touched a few things and felt immediately drawn to the shiny jewelry section in the back.  Typically that's what I buy at Forever 21.  The shiny jewelry.  I see Meg across the store and she chucks a couple pairs of jeans at me and says she wants me to try them on. They were a size 30 waist. HA, right, what is she thinking? Is she trying to pull some kind of cruel joke on me??  I'm emphatically telling her that they won't fit and she talks back and says, "Emily, YES THEY WILL. PLEASE TRY THEM ON. TRUST ME." (I even bet her $100 that they wouldn't fit. ;)   Well, I trust her and so I rallied myself up to the changing room line and waited for a room to try on these jeans that surely would not fit me.  I slipped the first pair over my leg and was surprised that they even went past my kneecap. Hmmmm, interesting. Then I slipped them over my booty and wow, I might be out $100. Then BOOM, they button. Other than being 2 inches too short (something I battle anyway!) THEY FIT. Ohmygoodness, they FIT! 

In my Phit N Phat groups with Corinne, we talk a lot about our inner "fat girl." Even when you lose the weight, there is that heavy person still in there lingering and trying to tell you that you "can't" or that you "won't." She's the one telling me I'm still a size "large" so don't even bother with the "medium." She's the one telling me a triathlon is so far out of my reach and I must be crazy.  When you've been heavy for any period of time, you are inside your own head in a big way. At least I was and still am at times!  This fat-girl thinking holds us back from our goals and our dreams.  It's silencing that fat girl that is one of my missions for 2013.  I don't think she'll ever go away completely, but the least I can do is tell her to bug off! I owe that to myself. My comfort zone is a tough spot to leave, and just like in the dressing room, or in the Biggest Loser gym, you grow the most on the outside of that zone.  Can anyone else relate to this FGT (fat girl thinking)? Share!


"You're capable of anything, honey...if you choose it" - Jillian Michaels

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